It’s late and cold when you arrive at the bar
I read morose verses into the way you hold your shoulders
dancing limericks in your shaking hands. You’re drinking
tap water because it’s free and studying for hours because
this hungry, twilight academic life is the
opposite of free.
You will talk to me but your eyes are on an unseen page
if you could fight your way through the clotted vowels
the ruthless complications. The assertions that you must know this.
If you could only know it. If you could only know it. If you could only know enough –
sorry, what were you saying? You said something. What was it?
No, it’s okay.
Your shoulders slump a little and you draw a static heartbeat
in the spilled water on the table. All of a sudden I’m sorry
and I want to put my mouth against your cheek. And I want to say something.
It’s all that’s in me. I watch you release all of your breath like it hurts you.
And what I want to say is I love you I love you I love you I love you I love
Listen, I’m going to buy a bowl of chips
and pretend I’m not hungry enough to finish them by myself.
Daisy Harris